2010 Im gonna take you down

So the usuals were rocking our new year at the Khoo's.... It was a relaxing yet not-so-relaxing countdown all at the same time. With cheery furry friends, food, poker, guitar & ahh... the alcohol stash. I am sick of alcohol! But whats better than having great company to stand by you and be with you embracing the last few moments of 09? I love them more than ever :) Its the bloody beetroots at Zouk tonight! Not exactly a fan of them but then again, Im never a fan of anything.. Its gonna be insanely packed but it has gotta be one helluva awesome night and I cant wait! 09 has been a pretty bad year.. fell in and out of love, made new friends, lost some friends... I promise you 2010 will defo be a better year!

XOXO

This time baby I'll be bulletproof

Today I asked someone for the definition of love and he said "Love is an emotion which blinds you". As of late Ive been feeling the shittiest & ugliest because Ive figured love is stupid, love at the age of 18 is not love. It did not just blinded me, but it literally dugged out my eyeballs countless of times.

Ive been feeling so gawd damn lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely and no matter how many times Im gonna type this word down will not make you understand just how LONELY I feel argh!

Holidays are zooming right past my eyes at the speed of light! Maybe cos Ive been having tonnes of fun with great girlfriends and old friends and nothing beats having them as company hands down! So it has been lotsa shopping, lunch/dinners & a movie with Bel and this is definitely worth mentioning cos I havent caught a movie in ages! Whats best was when we got to witness some dude proposing to his girlfriend in the cinema! Not exactly the most original but he defo deserved brownie points! Pssss! His girl is from China & they've only been dating for 21mths which is yes... less than 2 years! Now what do you think? And I was fb profile hopping while I happened to chance upon this couple who both just turned 21 this year and they are MARRIED! They are both from Fairfield and the dude used to be my school-bus buddy but say whattt??? Im not doubting their relationship but sometimes I wonder why people wanna be in love?? Youre just gonna get hurt. I have to say this.... even my friends who can put up their sweetest & most adorable side infront of their girlfriends would usually do something heartbreaking behind their backs. You call this love?!

Admit it guys.... most of the time its not love, its more like lust. All you wanna do is to get into our pants, all you want is sex.

I am afraid of love...... I do not want love to exist.

Merry xmas ya'llllllll

Its xmas once again and it has always been my favourite time of the year but I've realised as Im growing older, the excitement wears down & xmas has never been worse. Merry xmas wasnt all that merry for the past 2 consecutive years but Im pretty much glad that this year's a tad bit better.

Got a BB Curve + ST45 cam from daddy dearest, clothes from my mummy as usual (She got me a dress cos she thought my sister looked good in it, however I didnt quite liked it. So she went shopping for my present again! And got me the most gorgeous sequin pullover, I cant wait to wear it! Mum youre amazing!), cute reindeer handmade photoframe from my sis (the photo in it was one of those we took on our many sisterly dates we used to spend together, though shes been really busy but looking at the photoframe would just warm my heart instantly and bring back wonderful memories. Oh and she has finally graduated! So proud of you babe!), a christian cd from my aunt (It has a meaning behind it! My aunt is the most thoughtful woman ever), and many many little trinkets and candies etc etc. Thank you bunnies.

Now peekchas! This was on the 23rd at Lulu's crib for xmas dinner & Zouk then after!


Muffin is damn cute!




Nutsuxu!


Soapy!




Michy!


My girls which I havent seen in ages!




Gerri berri!




Flaming lambo


Gerri Avena Nat


Resh!


The boys came :) :) Abel Peng Andre!


Lovelove buddy




Egg yolk!




:)

And this was last night, xmas eve... Yeah I know right, back to back partying!!


Nat & Xl


Tonton!




Sherri & Sam Ryo!


Omar!




Luke willy wenjun & all...




The barker entourage came! :) :)


JL!



Barely a week since the holidays started & I feel so tired already. Isnt hols supposed to be relaxing?? Zouk last fri, Gerri's birthday celebration at Chillis on sat, Starbucks with Kenny at midnight, lunch with old family friends from aussie + grocery shopping on sun, class gathering at my place on mon, shopping with kaylyn + french mani with mum on tues (my nails are vibrant pink & white now sexxxy!), party on wed, party on thurs, party TONIGHT! Whoop whoop!!

Class gathering!
























YAY! :)

Gonna stay home to watch little mermaid + dinner with the boys and Ness at Andre's place later!

XOXO

Last night I puked 4 times and cried my eyes out..... I have to stop crying. Anw I fucking hate people who takes advantage of me. I am not your bloody atm machine.

Dear God draw me close to you once again.. why do I keep doubting you man. And I dont even know if you can hear me or are we just psychoing ourselves just because the pastors in church said that Youre listening? See, doubting again.

I wanna rock with you all night, dance with you till sunlight

Arent you guys sick of my blog? Im always talking about the same stuff right? My life is basically the same old routine every single week. School, friends, shop, party. Yeah Im always having fun but Im feeling so sick of all these "fun" & wanna sit back and chill instead. But whenever my friends and I make plans to "chill" out, we'd ALWAYS end up drinking. Seeeeriously need a rehab or something!

Anyway we had stats test on tuesday and it was sucha screw up! I didnt realised that Ive been writing the wrong formula on my notes all these while?!!? :S Had soccer on thursday, finally a day out under the sun hahaha. It was surprisingly quite fun? Though half of the time I was disturbing/laughing at everyone and cheerleading with Queenie! Hhaha I had countless of people asking if I was feeling alright, especially keith! "Are you feeling okay? Are you very tired? Very boring ah?" Hhahaha its NOT boring I swear, I really had fun! Its just that the pale-ness of my face makes people think Im tired? Most of the time Im not tired, Im just out of breath. I feel very breathless even while walking up the stairs, even if its only 2 stories, I'd still feel extremely weak. But I'd just say Im tired cos Im lazy to explain. And I know Im very very pale. I dont know if its my blood count or what, but I've just been feeling weaker & weaker.... :(

Went for ACFF at Red Dot Museum on thursday night with Dee. Rach was supposed to come as well but she couldnt get up from her sleep. Went there to find Zw & Luke but sadly we only managed to see Zw cos Luke was busy managing the sounds. It was awesome though!!! The whole fashion show... I enjoyed it & I think they did a great job!!! :) Luke's mixes were really good too it made me felt like dancing!!! But what's best was seeing familiar faces and bumping into old friends! Kristyn, Lyanne, Harresh, Bryan etc etc! Miss all of them so much :)

Anyway.... Thriller @ Butter!






















SOOOOOOO HAPPY TO SEE SHERILYN I SWEARRRRR. I miss you so much girlie!!!!!!!!!!!






I LOVE MANDY PANDY. Seriously need to catch up with them :(

Went to Jm's house for my sister's surprise birthday party today! It was well planned & everything was great! She was so surprised + touched she cried and broke her slippers hahaha. I hope she enjoyed herself though, cos I did! Lovelovelove.

Holland for drinks then after. Now Im home blasting Diplo on my ipod :D